Them: "Sis, where have you been?"
Me: "Thriving."
You may be thinking, "Sis, it's June. THE END OF JUNE. Where have you been? Also, that's not 100 days into the year. Your math is off sis." I know, it has been a while since I last wrote on here, but I have been waiting on God to release me to share. On January 1st I began reading the 100 day devotional 100 Days of Believing Bigger by Marshawn Evans Daniels. My sister, Crystal Nicole, CEO of Created to Be Consulting, was reading it in 2020 and recommended that I start it when I had some time. Since I was in a space of desiring to grow my faith even more post the release of my devotional, Faith In Spite Of, I knew it was just what I needed to kick off 2021. I had been hearing God pull me to take time away from the distractions that have been both weighing on my spirit, and taking up way more time than it needed to. Social media was one of those things I stepped away from. The time that I would have spent scrolling and double tapping, were spent in prayer and focusing on the 100 day devotional.
Being able to focus on purpose, preparation, and this process of becoming was exactly what I needed at this time in my life. I was experiencing so much transition, some wonderful, some not so wonderful, and needed to remain rooted in what I knew to be true. That I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living, that all things work together for my good, and that God qualifies those He calls. Without the distractions of all the calamity that was happening at the top of the year, I did not have additional stresses. With the emphasis around understanding divine disruptions, I was able to bask in the joy of the transitions that I was experiencing. I was able to pour in a different way, I was able to love in a different way, and I was able to lead in a different way. Different because now I am in a space where I am truly and deeply believing the things I am praying for. I'm seeing it, I am hearing it, I am dreaming it, and God has been confirming it in so many different ways. I am able to both appreciate the blessings and still anticipate the greater that is on the way. Believing Bigger for me is beyond increasing my faith. It is remaining grounded in what I know to be true and not to be confused or comfortable in the in between. I just moved, and absolutely love my brand new apartment. I am so thankful that I was able to both afford and move into this place. I also know that God promised me a house. So while I am celebrating and honoring where I am now, I am still doing what needs to be done in preparation for the promise.
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Believing Bigger has brought me to a place of so much peace in so many areas of my life. It has helped me to remember that God is capable of always doing more, greater, and bigger, than our present and than our imagination. It has taught me to live fully, as though the promise is already here. Believing Bigger was me remembering who He called me to be and walking in that, and not allowing experience, credentials, and naysayers to make me show up afraid, worried, and self conscious. Not allowing insecurities, self imposed or otherwise, to allow me to speak word curses over myself and block blessings. Allowing myself to follow the instructions, lead like Jesus, and love those that I am called to, wholly. I am thankful for this time away, resetting, listening, and resting. Even Jesus needed some time away with just He and The Father. When was the last time you went into the garden by yourself? You might find something you didn't know you needed there. God Loves You!
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